I do not even know where to begin with how I have been feeling lately. I guess pretty cruddy about sums it up. Over the past couple years I have had my ups and downs with trying to get healthy. Last year I hit a pretty good groove. I was eating fairly well a good percent of the time. I was going to the gym at least 3-5 times a week and even running at homes on the weekends. Although, I did not run the whole thing I participated in my first 5k. On the treadmill I could run at least a mile without stopping (not much to some but an accomplishment for myself) and was to a point where I could do a slow jog outside for 30 minutes without stopping to walk. It had taken me 2-3 years but I had lost 27 pounds and I was so excited! I was far from my goal weight but was still ecstatic. I was able to buy smaller sizes of jeans and was hoping to continue to see progress.
The last year or so I had given up pop and went a year an a couple months with drinking any. It was great for me and then one day I gave in and decided one drink of someone else wouldn’t hurt me but I found I do not have much self control. I wanted a whole one then was back to having one a day. I would stop drinking them a bit then want to buy one again. I’m terrible at moderation with somethings so it works best just to cut it out completely. I also stopping eating fast food for a year and although most of the time I did okay not wanting to eat it lately I have been having one more than I should. It has been baked goods, chocolate, pizza, burgers, Chinese, Starbucks Fraps, etc galore lately and it really must stop.
I totally think having things like the above is okay every once and a while but for me it has become a norm again and as you can guess it is beginning to show. I seriously wish I could live in my yoga pants right now because those jeans I was so proud to fit in do not really fit anymore. They are getting snug. Over my break I really realized how unmotivated I had gotten. I know there are a 24hrs in a day and how we manage them is all up to us but I felt I didn’t have the time to cook food or workout. Just like before I need to make the time though. I did it once and I can do it again.
I never should have slacked off because it just got worse and worse over time. I bet you if I tried to go for a jog I wouldn’t make it 5 minutes without stopping. That makes me sad after all I felt I had accomplished. I knew over break that I had to find my motivation. No one was going to get it back for me. I’m not going to lose the weight I gained and then some by continuing to do the same thing. I can’t afford new jeans at the moment so I can’t afford to let the ones I have get any tighter. Plus, I just felt better over all when I was making progress. I had more energy and although I still had a lot of work to do I was becoming happier with myself. That is gone and I am going to work to get it back. Thanks to Cassey at Blogilates I have started my journey to get back on track. She always has a monthly calendar with which of her workout videos you should do daily (rest days included) so I won’t get bored and don’t have to worry about whether I am working out all the areas I should be. Recently she started a 12 week new body makeover that I am hoping to stick to that and see some progress. It started Sunday but I am a day behind and started today. The food was actually really good. It is actually a lot of food to eat each day so I had to cut things back which is great because I wasn’t hungry throughout the day. You can read more about the 12 week new body makeover here.
I am just happy to be getting back at it. I hope i can stick to it even longer this time. Not trying to just diet. I am trying to make changes I can keep forever. Wish me luck.
Anyone else struggling with this? Working on getting healthier? Already an expert? Any advice? I would love to hear from you all in the comments below